If I weren't a mom, then on Thursday afternoon when this goofy kid-
looked like this-
I wouldn't have been so scared. My amazing friend told me I had nerves of steel when I was with my Gavin on the ground, while he was laying there waiting for the paramedics. I did my freaking out internally while I was running the 10 feet across the yard to get to him after he fell. Once I got there, it never occurred to me again to be scared or worried. I had to be the calm face- so he would stay calm. Because if he freaked out, it would be bad.
So I didn't.
But once we were home from the emergency room. and the kids were in bed. and all was quiet. I had my little break down, safe and sound, in my hubby's arms. I cried for about 5 minutes about how scared I was when I saw my little Monkey laying on the ground. Then I was ok again. My kid is ok. I'm ok.
If I weren't a mom, I would have never experienced these emotions. I'm not in any hurry (at all. ever.) to repeat them, but I wouldn't give up motherhood for anything.
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